Cheer Up Darling

When no one else can help you then only you can help you. And when you can do so then do it for you.

Life is very beautiful no matter what. Celebrate it; celebrate it for yourself coz you matter.

For last few days, I was trying to cope up with my mood swings but was unable to despite of long talks with the people I love to be around. Being a very very talkative girl, talking endlessly with someone close generally lifts my mood up like anything. But this time, I guess I was pretty low.
 For nobody was able to help me out, I decided to help my own self. And one fantastic way of getting back to the track of life is to write down a note to self. And volla! it worked. So this is what I wrote that day...

"Cheer up darling. You're beautiful. There are so many people around you who cherish your presence. Don't feel low about yourself for anything you've done or missed to do. Its OK. Its life and its a continuous process. You'll get more chances to mend and rectify. And even if you don't, don't worry; deal in the best way to what you get. You'll progress so.

This is your life and you've every right to live it your own way.
So chin up and cheer up sweetie for you matter a lot for yourself. Love yourself for what you are.Don't let anything or anyone break you into pieces for you're rally strong at heart. You've got many brilliant plans in your mind and this strongness along with your passion, persistence will lead you to your ultimate goal.

Don't get struck to the fantasies in the way. They are just the distractions. Just focus on what your heart actually lust for and how you are gonna get it.

Live life to its fullest and enjoy every bit of it coz you're not gonna get that moment back. Love yourself!!"

Finally the time has come

Aisa kyu hota hai ki jis manjil ke hum bhot khawab sajate hai, jb vo manjil kareeb ane lgti hai to kil kehta hai ki 'Arey itni jaldi to nhi bola tha...', especially tb jb us manjil tk ki rah bhot lambi thi aur eventually ap us rah ko enjoy krna seekh jate ho.

This is something similar to ki jab gadi desitnation pr phochne vali hai to apka dil chahta hai ki please koi is gadi ka reverse gear dale aur thoda backward move krke fir se chalaye taki thoda time aur hum aise hi jee le, thoda sa aur is time ko enjoy kr le. Bad me to sirf yaadien hi reh jati hai.

Just now booked the tickets to Bangalore. Finally its time to leave my sweet loving home and move to an altogether new environment (Infosys Mysore Development Center). That also for a minimum of 4 to 6 months. This only thought is scaring me and driving me crazy. Time to change my character from a 'Princess Barbie' to a 'Brave Princess (self dependent girl)' fighting all alone for all her affairs.

This time I would ask myself to 'Stay Blessed'.

I don't know if above written sentences are well formed and make sense or not but I can't help with this. Aise hi dil me aya aur aise hi ek kore kagaz pr utar diya. Trust me before jotting down my feelings, I was feeling very stressed and restless. But as I'm completing writing it, I'm feeling quite relieved. Now I can understand why do people who writes write. Thanks to my blog for patiently listening to me and to my songs who accompanied me while I wrote the whole stuff. :)

ज़िन्दगी की सीख

हमारी ज़िन्दगी मे चाहे एक तूफान आए या एक खुशनुमा सा हवा का झोंका,
वो हमेशा हमारे लिए कोई न कोई सीख छोड़ कर जाता है ;
कभी कभी हमे वो हालात का सामना करना सिखाता है,
तो कभी कभी बस चुप चाप पीछे बैठ कर जो हो रहा है, उसके मज़े लेना सिखा जाता है।

Incomplete poet in me

Jab jab mai jada emotional ho jati hu, I start writing something in poetic mood. Shayad kuch poem jaisa hota hai, I guess.

But there's one thing that happens every time. M never able to complete that poetic thing. Probably either m not able to understand my feelings properly and completely or m not able to pen them down nicely. May be I need to spend some more quality time with my emotions in solitude.

Time to capture some more time from my daily life to live more... :)

Thank you God

No matter how good or bad your whole day has been, at the end of the day, you will have a marvelously sound sleep when you have someone to talk to about it and when the other person you are talking to is also interested in you.

Thank you God for blessing me with such a lovely and caring partner to spend my life with.  :)

Missing you Maa

वैसे तो हम पहले बिना वजह सारा सारा दिन बातें किया करते थे,
पर आज कल ना जाने क्यों तुजसे यु ही बात करने के लिए भी
कोई वजह खोजनी पड़ती है..
पता नही ऐसा क्या हो गया कि मै  तुजसे इतनी दूर हो गयी.

Missing you mummy and everyone rest at ma home... Love you all... <3

Love you Zindagi

I'm not scared of death,

M just fond of living... :)

 (-Deepika)

मुझे मौत से डर नही लगता
मुझे तो बस ज़िन्दगी जीने का चस्का है... :)

(-दीपिका)

I don't know how much the above thoughts are true in my case, but these days m living in my full swings. M very very happy and excited about my new life which going to start very shortly.
 

I don't know what's exactly gonna happen, but m hoping for the best of my life to be waiting for me at this next turn of my life. Fingers crossed. (X)

Good luck to me is all what I wanna wish myself. I know m gonna rock. :))

One request to my Allmighty

एक अर्ज़


जिसे उड़ने की इज़ाज़त न हो
उसे पंख भी न दिए जाए
ऐसे पंख ज़िन्दगी भर चुभते है


ऐसे सपने न दिखाए जाए
जिनके सच होने की कोई गुंजाईश ही नहीं
ऐसे सपने साड़ी ज़िन्दगी दर्द देते है.


(Will try some other day to complete it. Hopefully till then something good may happen and I might need not to complete this. Hmmm.. Good Luck Zindagi.)

उमीदे

लोग अक्सर कहते है कि पालनी है तो उमीदे पालिए
कभी भी सपने मत पालिए
क्युकि सपने अक्सर सच नही होते
और टूटने पर ये सपने बहोत रुलाते है

पर अलग है अंदाज़ हमारा यहाँ
हमें तो सपनो से जादा उमीदो ने रुलाया है
कभी कभी मै सोचती हु कि
हर बारी मै जूठी उमीदे ही कैसे पाल लेती हु..

अब तो सोच लिया कि न तो कोई सपना देखेगे
और न ही कोई उम्मीद रखेगे
जैसे ज़िन्दगी कहेगी
वेसे ख़ुशी खुशी जी लेगे...
 

First weekend at infy

(Dated Feb11,2011)
Today me and my friends had a trip to the mysore palace. Oh it's so so beautiful that m not having words to express my feelings. The whole architecture is so wonderful especially the carvings on the walls and the ceilings. The whole scene just left my eyes wide opened. :-) But yes if we have hiered a guide things would have made the whole thing more knowledgeable. But it's ok; I enjoyed the whole trip.

 There for the first time i had the camel ride. I was alone on the camel and this is something I want to boast upon. Sitting alone on the camel was no less than an act of bravery for me. After so long I screamed so loud just like a small child. Yippiee..!!

Ok after we reached infy campus, we decided to dine at tofin which is a small restraunt kinda thing. This was the best part of the day coz there I had Punjabi food that also in typical Punjabi taste with Honey Singh songs in the background. I was having this kind of food since I had left Delhi and tofin did truly reminded me of a dhaba. Bas maza hi aa gya... Mummy ke khane ka chota sa substitution mil gya though this gap can never be filled by anything on this earth. Yummy..!! Atleast this dose can help me to survive for the next few days..

Rest all is superb here. Details of the awesome environment at infy will be provided to you on some other fine morning. Till then bbii and take care... :-)

Blunder again

 Oh I'm too bad at this- filling my memory card with few songs of my collection (few is actually not few literally). I may be having a memory card of 2GB, 3, 4 or even more, I can never be satisfied with the number of songs I can have. I always want more and more, greedy me.. I've been trying to adjust all my favorites in the given memory since 11 this morning and till 6 pm, I'm still struggling to get it done. Don't know when will I grow up or will I grow up.. :O

(Infy, had you allowed us to bring lappy or hard disk drive or even pen drive, my work would have become much much easier.)

 Anyways, I know I can't help myself in this regard.. so jate jate....

"Just few more hours to go..... Wishing myself all the very best...
I guess I'm not gonna miss anyone coz i'll be carrying everyone in my heart and in my memories... but surely gonna miss my belongings and my routine nd my songs (nt able to carry all in my memory card as mentioned.. :O).......

Hopeful for the entirely new chapter of my life....... and a feel of gratitude for all those who tolerate me and my varying moods when i was with them.... Thank you all... :))"

Ek Vinti

(Tomorrow will be leaving for infy. The awaited day has finally arrived, but m not really very happy or excited. Anyways, probably this is gonna be my last post from my home , so one request to the Almighty before leaving...)


He Ishwar,
mujh par itni kripa krna ki jab bhi mera sir jhuke to vo sirf tere sajde me na ki sharmindagi me,
aur jab bhi mera sir ude to vo aatm vishwas me na ki ahenkaar me.

jehi vidhi hoi naath hit mora,
karahu so begi daas mei tora... :)

--Deepika Bansal

Chahat

pta nhi aisa kyu hota hai- jab bhi hum kisi cheez ko dil se pana chahte hai to uske milne ki umeed kam si hoti jati hai...

aur jab hum saari umeede chod kar, us chahat ko bhul jana chahte hai

ya bhul hi jate hai ,tab zindagi us se bhi behter kuch hmari jholi me 

la kar rakh deti hai......

ae zindagi, agar tera ye khel hai hai, to kuch naya khel soch kyuki tera ye khel ab meri samaj me ane laga hai. :)

Update (Feb 18,2012 onwards):
Now I feel ki jab bhi mai intazaar krke thak jati hu aur us cheez ka craze itna khatam ho jata hai ki ultimately I actually start hating it like anything, tabhi vo cheez muje milti hai. As a result of which it not only become near to impossible to live it, but rather it become difficult to even enjoy it. Does this mean that I should not wish anything ever in my life...!!

Tragic thing about life

They say- "Every end marks a beginning."

So true; but the tough part is that 'end' has to be faced prior to the 'beginning' of the next part of life.

Infosys train

Earlier the train of Infosys (infy) was delayed for a month. All the passengers who were damn excited to board it and to experience an altogether a new environment just like a fresh blossomed flower, then seemed like a fragrance-less sad dead flower. All the craze was lost in the way and we all went lazy with our preperations.


But now, after a long wait, the awaited moment has come. Recently received further communications from infy regarding the details of joining on Feb 6th. Dull mail box turned colorful just like a spring in autumn. Infy train has blown the last whistle. This whistle has awaken all its passengers from their laziness. The platform can now truly feel the busyness as expected. Now the shopping and the packing work will be accelerated.


***Time to leave my home-sweet-home, my paradise. 

***Time to board the train to land to a totally new destination.

***Time to lose a 'treasure (my home)' to gain something less valuable than  myself being at my home with my family.

***Time to experience a perfect blend of of the emotions of saddness and excitement. Hmm, the quantity of the excitement is going to be very less compare to the sadness of going far from family. :(

Something special on Jan 9th,2012

January 9th,2012 is the day we all have been waiting for long. This day could have been the day of our joining in Infosys. But alas! it didn't happened. So I've something to say on this day. Gaur farmaiyega:-

kabhi kabhi mere dil me

ye khayaal ata hai ki

aj ke din 9 jan ko hum

mysore me infosys ke

induction program ke luft uda skte the

magar ye ho na ska

magar ye ho na ska

aur ab ye aalam hai ki

hume ek aur mahina aise hi

intzaar ki raho me guzaarna pdega

kabhi kabhi bus yuhi

mere dil me ye khayaal ata hai

koi baat nhi jaise uski razaa

uski razaa me hi apna mazaa... ;)

PS: Hoping that I don't write a similar post on Feb 6h,2012. Fingers already crossed.

Intzaar

kahi kisi ko kehte suna hai ki

jo jo jab jab hona hai,

so so tab tab hota hai.

aur shayad ye sach bhi hai.

ae zindagi jab teri settings itna time leti hai

then why don't you bless me with some patience

taki mai samundra ke kinare baith kr

shant mann se aati jati lehro ko dekh saku

lahro ki mastiyo ko bharpur ji saku

bina kal ki parwah kiye

us kal ka jis par mera shayad koi zor hi nhi

aur ye intzaar bhi kr saku ki

koi leher samundra ki gehraiyo se

ek amulya (priceless) moti laa kr

mere pass hamesha ke liye chod jae

kyuki mai janti hu ki

is intzaar ke dusre chor par

khushiyan mera intzaar kar rhi hai

aur itna dhayaan zarur rakhna

ki kahi meri ye umeed tut na jae.

because hope is all what I have.

ae zindagi mujh me itna sabr bakhsh

ki mai is intzaar ka bhi maza le saku

Sant Kabir ji bhi keh gye hai-

dheere dheere re mana, dheere sab kuch hoye;

maali seeche sow ghara, ritu aaye fal hoye... :)

PS: Happy Ending 2011.... You were great. Wish 2012 is gonna even more awesome. :D

Beautiful Nature

It always feels great to be in the lap of nature. Whenever I feel sad or lonely, I feel life with the nature. Whenever I am happy and excited, I feel as if nature is also celebrating happiness with me.

Thank you God for making this world so beautiful... :)

Below are some of the clicks of sunrise and sunset that I've clicked over times. My collection:-

 

The best one...

To be continued... Some more clicks to come...

Perception towards a situation changes everything

Heya...

M back again. Ok I've been to no where. Was just doing some preparations to leave for Infosys Mysore shortly. Everything was going fine but as it is said there is many a slip between a cup and a lip, same happened with us as well. On Saturday (Dec 10th, 2011), we got a sudden mail from Infy that because of some accommodation availability issues, our doj (date of joining) has been postponed from Jan 9th,2012 to Feb 6th, 2012. We all were shocked. Our shopping was almost done, packing was about to start, tickets have been booked and then a jhatka...


Now there can be many ways to deal with this new twist. One way is to cry literally and yes we people did that. During hours long discussion that went on my Facebook status, we cursed Infy a lot and passed a lot of comments. (Wish I could add a screen shot of that.. it was fun.. ;)) 
Many of my friends and seniors, who are already getting crushed in their jobs, asked us to feel good and made us realize that we've been so lucky that we got some more time to spend quality time with our families because once we get into the IT sector, those people are going to take our juices out of us. So just chill.


After a while, I realized that they were correct. Yes I've got one month more to be cheerful and live my life the way I want. :)
Now I can enjoy all my interests that have been lost somewhere in the busy run of life. Now I can plan some more trips. Yes I'm super happy now. :D


I don't know what Almighty has thought for me, but one thing for sure is that I'm gonna make the best of it. :)
Good luck Deepika...!!

Thankgiving and more...

In my last post, I've requested my college authorities to please give us our degree certificates asap. The recent update is that they've accepted our humble request and now we can collect our degrees. Good point is that we can now have our degrees- hmari chaar saalo ki mehnat; and the bad point is that we won't we able to enjoy our convocation, one thing that I've been longing for so long... :( Graduate hone ki sahi feeling to convocation me hi aati hai.. But its OK. This is all that I can say now. No other choice..!! ;)



One more thing to share- Yesterday I got a new cell phone. Its Sony Ericson Xperia Ray (black). A very smart phone keeping me busy all the day long. :) Pesh hai uski ek jhalak :---->

One more thing... As on today, i.e. December 6th-2011, exactly one month (31 days) is left for infosys. The countdown has begun. On one thought, I am happy and excited and on the other, I am feeling sad. Confused once more. :o Detail to it will be posted on some fine day... Till then stay tuned...... ;)